stupidity

Today, I suppose to have a date with Milatina Salma, who asked me the night before to join her and Bako on their plan , hunt for some photos in Senayan. She said, "9 am ya we" and i said, okay because i don't have any plan anyway, Cassey is leaving to Shanghai trip with her family, and i just had spent too much money days before, so i think, hunt for some photos would be nice.

And so , i woke up , actually , kinda late, about 9.10 or when-so-ever, and i didn't remember why i should wake early this morning. After yawning and stretching, i began to realized , MILA !

So i called her. (Still in sleepy voice)

"Mil, are you awake? Jadi ga ke senayan?"

mila :"ya wek, gw juga baru bangun hahaha. yauda i call Biki dulu ya"

And so after i hung up the phone, i went back to sleep for awhile till Bako's sms came and she said,

"Wek, kita sushi aja yu sushi tei senayan city. Mila ga jadi dibolein pergi, dia harus ngurus SIM"

hmm okay. Sushi sound good afterall.

I remembered that Dita wants to come to my house to install THE SIMS 3, so i told her that i have this sushi tei plan, and i asked her to join. She approved it, so then, its a date.

12 o'clock, but i actually still having a bit of reaction of something i did the day before, so i just didn't feel to move fast, i came a bit late, but Dita and Bako did so, so no one got there on time anyway.

We ate our lunch, with some "blunder"ing thing, i tried to stay focused on their conversation, it did well anyway, almost actually, i skipped a few of their conversation, i didn't feel to well.

And so, because in sushi tei we cant smoke, we moved to Plasa Senayan, to Starbucks - i need caffein so much - my very bad choice i have done today.

2 cups of dark coffee, without milk, and 3 bottles of coke. This really messed me up.

Afterall, Mila came to Senayan and join us to have a cup of , i don't remember what she drank.

We have this big chat of Manohara, Megawati, and things that actually, i don't understand.

And finally, we wanted to move somewhere cozier, we moved to this so-called- palm, we moved to foodcourt, and finally, we decided to go to CheeseCakeFactory in Panglima Polim.

This stupidity began just before we got out from Senayan.

I parked my car in Senayan city.

What i remember is, i parked it at B2 E-something.

So i just moved my foot to the path i remembered.

My car wasn't there.

My car wasn't anywhere.

There's no such E mark around the corner where i remembered as the corner i parked mine.

Start to panic, thank God i wasn't alone, Dita companied me.

We walk through all of the corner, searching for everysingle detail i said, we asked the Carboy or who-so-ever they're called.

Still, i dont have any clue. Where did i park my car?

I PANIC. FOR REAL.

BLUNDEEEERRRRRRRRR..

Gee, do you know how it feels when you're in a middle of some test and you don't know any of the answer, anything, or you got busted for something bad, and you panic like crying (thank God,i wasn't).

And i tried to calm my self down, tried to remember anything i did before i went upstair the moment i arrived before.

And also, i called Bako first, to tell them that i missed my parking place, and the respon i get was

"Ga papa we, gw ini juga lagi ada masalah, gw ketilang polisi nih didaerah gw ga tau mana, gara2 salah 3 kali. hahahahaha"

Waw, hahaha

Me = miss-locating my car

Mila = busted by police

After another searched i made with Dita, (i really felt sorry for her because of this stupidity)

finaly, I FOUND IT!

And you know what, it's just a few meters from the escalator room, i must have turn right, but i took left right, thats why i missed navigation.

HAHA

MAN you don't know how i felt, it so damnly relief !! i hugged my car for real. haha

And then i called Bako, they also had finished their problem with the policeman, without spending anymoney for pay them up.

I just don't feel like hungry anymore, i just got too panic.

But we did went to the CheeseCake Factory, Mila, Bako and Dita had their dinner there.

PLUS, now that we're home, Mila forgot to brought the cake he bought for her dad, she came back, which like JATIWARINGIN - PANGLIMAPOLIM for twice ?!?!?! (yea mungkin blom ampe jatiwaringin, maybe uda di toll mana gitu ahhaha)

BLUNDEEEER

We actually laughing at each other of what we have experienced today.

This is really funny thou.

I just hoping it wont happen anymore.

I will keep my self sober !

my own whispering statement

Because of this ,not little actually, big conversation i had with Jason and Kota, and also because of my last posting below this, i start to re-read all of my blogs, happens to be

was it?

a so-called mind sound that never been talked so much in reality, is that really my thought?

my very honest mind comes out when i was drunk

everybody has read

caused another perception of this and that

did i type it?

of course it's me

and i realized

it must have been read.

Seems like what i have said in reality becomes the biggest lie because i'm afraid of my self.

But also, this would be some funny experiment (STUPID experiment) i may keep as a nostalgia things many years from now.

I dont care anymore.

I'll just do what i do everyday, i wont change, because i think it wont necessary anyway.

Hope that there will be no miss understanding

Let it be just the way it is

the things that must be fixed and handled before i do something else, i'll think about it as soon as possible. And also, some action, need to be done.

I dont put much hope for this matter . I'll just live the way it has to be.

No more promises , no more lies

boys talk ?

Mkay.

So this day started with another boring activity i've done, woke up so late like 12 pm and still doing nothing, accept got my self any food because i was starving enough, also i had to take my med, so i got up from my lovely comfortable bed, just like about 15 minutes, and i came back to my beauty sleep.

Still sleeping till Jason's IM came, and he told me to hurry up and took a shower, and told me to go to watch transformer 2, revenge of what-so-ever, that comes out really cool afterall.

We watch it at the FX because they have all of the studios playing the same movie, so we bet there'll be any seat anytime we want.

And so i drove very fast to meet Jason there, and we bought 2 tickets for our own seat.

After we got the tickets, eventually, Cassey said her meeting with someguy at PIM already finished, then i dont actually know why, she didn't come to join us, maybe she had to prepare her departure tomorrow with her big family trip. Good luck Cas with the holiday, have so much fun there :)

And so, we grab our self food before our other friend Kota (Radit) came to join us, he also join us to watch the transformer.

This movie actually very cool, and i was amazed with the effect,optimus prime, i love youu, also bumblebee, you still cant speak, but you are so cute ! I just realized, that was a long duration movie after all. 2 and a half hours, hmmm.

And when the film just about to finished, Boncel said he's already arrived at the FX. Then we meet him somewhere , i forgot which floor was it.

We were planning to get some coffee somehow with Jason's BCA flash card his dad gave him. He totally used the card a lot, thanks to him he treat us oftenly this week. :D

And then Boncel got home earlier, and the boys (Jason and Kota) talks began sooner as he gone.

First of all, man , they talk about this PEMILU coming up at July, which i dont even care who the hell is the nomination, they said about this and that with their own perspective view about oration, or somekind of what-so-ever, which all i can say is "hmm ya ya i agree, hmm no i dont undestand, or yes yes what ever you say"

Start to feel bored by those political conversation (that always happened when 2 people from Law studier meet up and chat about law enforcement) hmm, it really is not a part of my life and i absolutely didn't put any interest on that kind of stuff, so i don't say anything. Maybe just "oh, okay, wow, etc."

And they talk about this and that, and they start to get bored by their own topics. So they change the topic.

Now, the topic was, "ME".

Okay, i start to ask my self, man, me? what should i say about my self? i dont even care about my self. hahaha

So i just smiled and asked, "what about? i dont have anything to share dude, mine just empty with lulaness and gabutness, hahaha"

"really? what about your full life story, dont you have any perkembangan??"

"till now, i dont think so"

"so what about your love life?"

"man that crucial thing, i dont even now what i need now, and lalalalalalalalaa... (im not explaining anything"

So then they started to giving me advices about how i deal with my self, why i cant do this or do that , inspite that i have a lot of chance to do so, or get some.

*Man, i tried anything to get anything, i just cant seem to find things to proof my self that i'm a normal person that can have boyfriend that easy as easy to clap my hand.

And they started to judge my self.

"We are your bestfriend, don't do the same thing to other people as you do to us"

HHHHHHMMMMM !!!!!!

I never do things i did to you guys as i did to person i just known like hours zzzz

Well, they do know that actually.

Me, can i ever be more girly-er than know?

They said , "no, just be your self, and you'll be fine"

SO WHAT AM I SUPPOSE TO DO?!

Anyway, this kind of conversation really is a very rare talk we do, i'm still confused how this conversation incidentally took place and time.

All of those chit and chat things, which i dont remember all of their words and sentences, a few points that i get is.

*I have to be honest to my self *which i know, i never do

*I have to care about what happen around me, i cant be careless anymore. *okay i'll try

*I do always have a chance, the thing is, I must not afraid to try anything than lose everything.

Well, seems like they really care about my stupidness of this crappy relationship thing, and they want me to start to have some, so, i will try all of their advices, but, how?

They said just, "Go with the Flow, but don't get to hard, you'll blown up your chance somehow"

Okay. Let me try..

Thanks for your advices guys, i appreciate it so much. Love you guys for your careness hahaha

Cheers for our gabutness