Google search engine

Custom Search

5.24.2009

i don't know !

i really having an absurd feeling for tonight. I cannot sleep because of a curiousness that gained by a friend of mine.
It started just when i was about to returning him home. We were talking about nothing , but then he gave a statement that surely makes me awake till now. I'm still wondering what was that all about.
Till i open this internet, i keep asking to him, still no answer.
Okay i gave up.

This man, i don't know actually what kind of feelings that i have and gave to him.
Weird and irrevocably said that i'm in love, or just care.
Started at nowhere, unknown business , our friendship become stronger.
But if i may say this is a "love-like" things, then i can't help my self around.

She, a woman that crazy in love with him, keeping me out of his range. She's afraid, of losing what she thought she has already got.

Tonight, in my car, was the last time i ever doubt that i do not love him. I DO. i really do.

Afterall, i check out a fun girl's blog. Included the name of a person i care about.
I read all about him. I felt like i was crying. I envy her situation, the situation that over come also being mine, but i can not have him the way she had. 
Apparently, because of reading that blog, i really realized my feelings on him, and i want to have him. But how suppose i say to this one mankind that overdoing of her approach to this one i love?

He's off the line, and started to steal my very mind, becoming to dream of my nite, even i can not leave the nite.
started to feel sick and hopeless, but finally i still hardly pray for something, keeping us still close and be the closest friend in the universe.