Heii i'm back, as i said before, i would like to tell you my new experience in this very day.
3rd day of 2010
its CYTHIA's birthdaaayyy yeeey
don't you know cynthia ? click on the name, you will see her picture with her boyfriend Sean Berger, if i'm not mistaken spelling the last name. hehehe
so, why was this day felt so much special ?
cynthia held her birthday party in her house, lots of her friends, including my juniorhigh friends came to her so called party. also her highschool friends, her sundayschool ( church thingy ) friends, the bishops , her uncles and aunties, cousins, nephews, nice, it was soo crowd there, well yeah, we didn't know each other but we get along well, we shared stories, we talked, listened, just "basa basi" if i may say.
but what make it so special ?
it came up when there was this "opening presents" time, when her father told her to get her friends, one by one, saying greeting before she opened the present from the following person she chose. one by one stand and said lovely, entertaining, funny, sad words for her. and then came the time for her parents to say their words. it was so touching till i almost , just almost cried my self out. but, yea, ja im. hehehe
and she must respond to their words,
here was the part i like the most.
she said, the very first time she arrived in Canada, she felt lonely, she didn't know anyone, she couldn't get a grip on anything because she was totally alone there.
the first thing she was trying to find was CHURCH
started from there, she was excepted by the people, who loved her because they knew that she loves GOD so much. since there , she got a very big strength to get through her life and she survives living alone, so far from her family.
also, this sentence really touching too. well, i might seen it not from "family" thing side, i was taken the essence for my love life.
"you wouldn't understand what someone meant for you until you were far away from them , then you'll realized how they meant for your life, how you miss them, how you need them, how you felt that you've been loved by them"
yes, we almost did things badly to our closest person , and we realized how they meant for us when they were far, or we already lose them
ehm, somebody might understand my problem here.
well, after all, this was a good lesson for us to be mentioned by someone really close to me like cynthia. i will always remember this.
so, anyway, we grab the cakes, we drink, we smoke , talked, laughed till we found that the last group left was we, her junior high friends, Don Bosco people - that's what we've been called from the very first time.
yes, we stayed like till 12 am, it was like a little reunion we had, thanks to cynthia again, that we have this opportunity to get reunited again.
ow how i miss them so much, besides of the high school people, this were my bestfriends, back in juniorhigh. i loved to laugh and spent the time with this guys, and Mayu, ooww how we love to have her as our friend, even thou we always mocking her because of her body size, but we do love you from the bottom of our heart may :D
yes, we laugh like we don't care about anything. funny to see we have changed a lot, and reminiscing or past like, wow, have we been there before ?
so much to say, but less time we had, we were saying good bye to each other, hugs, kisses, tears, laughs we share like there wont be another time, but i do believe and i do insist that there will be another opportunity. Cynthia, you must come home next year, i hope you will for sure.
so now, i've reached my very comfortable bed, and still writing down this post.
oya, back to middle topic here, let me say this as the closing
"i realized that i was such a fool, i waste my opportunity that might have been given from what you've done to me, our remaining time still be my lovely time, even thou now you're seeing me not more just as an ordinary friend. but i would love to tell you this, you are my very best man i ever had. you didn't hurt me, my thoughts, and my perspective about us, where there were no us maybe, it's the only reason why i'm in this position now. i may act like something crazy and annoying , but it was just my curious that turns me that way. i know i'll stop that, because i wont bother you anymore. but at the very least of everything, whenever you need me, or seek me, or anything, i'll be there just like where i used to be. i wont change, you're my best friend"
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