pathetic , yes, that was the word.
you know , well, several people known how i survived in my stupid love life. i have went through some similar mistake then. and i was like repeating all over again. i realized that i have enough with my self somehow. its not that i was angry or fed up with my self, i still love my self, i just longing to have another chance , to proof my self that i can do so much better, i can avoid another stupid decision, stupid theory, i just want to feel ordinary love, which i haven't felt till now.
several so-called relationship, thou never been in a real status somehow, but i did feel love, loving, loved and whatever you want to call it.
somehow the only thing that made me feel like there's missing pieces in my daylife, its only one thing. love. never had the real thing for once.
i have much friends, i have much activity, i never felt bored, i play a lot, instead, i was too much cool with anything. everything felt like nothing was wrong, it was like it fits the way they were. to perfect till i don't recognize whats missing.
somehow, yes , i do admit what my bestfriend said, i was too much careless , i should atleast be sensitive for a little bit, but i wont change the way i am thou.
im hoping this would be the last lame post about love love things. i will come back with great experience, angry, joy, sadness, anything but blaming my self.
we should keep our spirits alive, will you? you should! :D