otak , rasional, fakta

apakah itu nyata?

semuanya dianggap kenyataan jika berhubungan dengan perasaan

kembali lagi, perasaan adalah suatu yang abstrak

jadi apakah kebenaran itu?

topik teori tidak pernah menemukan satu titik

tapi semua itu hanya suatu kejemuan sementara yang tidak akan pernah memudar karena individu berkembang

otak berkembang

rasional berkembang

fakta berkembang

perasaan berkembang

tidak ada yang pernah menjadi suatu hal yang pasti

karena itu, jangan pikirkan apapun. jalani apa yang ada didepanmu

this week (november 22nd till today 26th) was quite messy days. i urge my self strongly to use all of my strength to do the assignment from the campus. its really exhausting for sure.

well actually it was started way before monday, but start from then, i really wasn't enjoying my day.

with me and my needs to be so relax and enjoying my life, i was force (by my self) to be too serious finishing all the things that have been signed and being paused for a while.

i don't know why but many people (friends of mine) always comment about this semester (5th semester) routine was very very boring. we don't have any spirit to study not even to think of anything. we were exhausted by the activities which we create on our own.

boring, and torturing.

this semester will last in about 1 more week, and we are going to do our final exam.

5th semester.. i can't believe that i've been studying for this long, and yet, i don't feel good enough with this major i take.

being in this "part" of life actually doesn't do me any wrong, but i still wanting something else. something that i really wanted to have.

if this became the real path of my life, what else can i say, i have to finish what i have started.

in a real confusing condition is my theme for all day. lets get this done and find the real life out there.

we can do it, can't we?

if i ever mentioned about

Cabrini Antoinette Asteriska Widiantini,

i would like to ,kind of, promoting about what she's been doing around lately. i mean, she's been doing this like years, but this present days, she's trying to make some effort of this thing she really into somehow.

She's my older sister, 2 years older than me. She's a singer. she has already sang since like when she was a child
she struggle enough to make this hobby, interest , or what ever you would call it as a part of her life.

she has many band, she start to get seriously involve with her band, actually i dont really get along with her band so i dont know the names.

she's made many songs, refer to day life, she make it as good as it rhymed, and very easy listening songs

support her, that's what i'm intending to do

check this blog and things she made about her songs

enjoy it

there is nowhere else to put this words after all

today's feeling that i have is the strongest feeling i ever urge to come up with

in need

the lost pair

who?

youth spirit

Photo of Bitterswing i took a week ago

coming back from reality, these word i'm going to arrange seems to be just a cliché but, they are real

youth, teenage, whatsoever you would call it, we couldn't measure it just by age, by how old we are.

i see it as how we act as we grow and try to socialize with other people, in deed, how we cope where we mingle around with friends, old, new, best friend, acquaintance, or even enemies.

sometime we act better, kinder, humble with new people, as if we tried to make a good first impression with them. but to old friends, we act careless, we yell, we scream, we don't even think about how they feel with our behavior

youth, is how we feel our spirit is light up with enjoyable things

we tried many things ahead, we don't care what people said, we just do what we do, we are being our self

but is it true?

is it really "us"

somehow we show up with good feelings instead , hiding all of the bad thoughts in mind so we won't affect other people, specifically among friends.

no

the real thing is, when we really in the good place, the perfect fit of our needs, our real friend, you show the real you

the bad and sad stories, the happy and joyful stories, all nagging, all comments, all insult, all bragging.. we show it all. we keep it share one to another.

thats what in mind.

the fact?

no one will know which one is the truth, because we human, choose to lie

but how ever that is, sometime on those laugh, you find something precious that you will think you should keep in forever

time flies, opportunities come and go

choose what you think you want to choose, it is our right to do it

we are the youth generation, we should be better in mind and better in act

but in our own perspective. freedom .. it is