a conclusion

Today i woke up with a heavy dizzy growling in my head.

i was sick. I'm not in a good mood, our last night chat was really bad, i dont even remember what did i say. I've started some conversation with him and today i need to get it finished.

So there i was. I got to the class, i was trying to put attention to the lecture but i just cant get my mind concentrate.

I don't have the guts to say anything. But this is what i want to have, not having any relationship, just for now. Maybe not with this guy.

So then the class dismissed early, i went to see him. He wasn't anywhere. I didn't want to call him, nor text him. So i wait a little bit more. But then, finally i texted him.

And he came.

First of all, i just didn't know yet what am i suppose to say. Every word that i've thought clearly just vanished in a second.

But then i tried to start the conversation.

I tried to explain everything that i have in my mind. And he understand every word.

That was quite startled me when i know that he has the same thought as i did. ( i wonder does he said that because he just want me to be relief)

But anyway, this is the best for us, so we broke up. But we know , we'll be a better friend just now on.

Thank God, i really did relief.

its my day

im editting my last post;

"26 January 2009 or 27 January 2009"

he asked me to have a relationship

i said yes

so there i am

having a new experience in relation

would it be last?

no one will know

i called 26th is the date

hmm

am i happy ?

26/1/09 PALASARI trip

Hari ini, 26 Januari 2009, hari dimana orang-orang tiong hoa merayakan GONG XI FAK COI, dimana orang-orang bersuka cita dan berlibur bersama keluarganya karena ada 3 hari libur (sabtu, minggu, senin), gw stay di Bandung karena alesan tertentu.

Dikarenakan perkuliahan semester 2 baru saja dimulai, gw ngajak Atha Purba, seorang senior 2006 di kampus fisip tercinta, khususnya hubungan Internasional, untuk mencari buku-buku referensi di sebuah bilangan daerah yang terkenal dengan buku-bukunya "PALASARI".

Hari ini dimulai dengan pagi yang sejuk. Gw terbangun di pukul 7 nan mendung, terbangun dengan rasa lapar, karena malam sebelumnya gw gak makan apa-apa. Terbangun lah gw dengan perut kerontang, and i realized, i still save some bread from last night, so i ate it.

Satisfied my hunger, mulai lah gw membuka laptop tercinta ku dearest MacBlake Boyd.

I open this and that, hunting anything that pop into my head. FB including , of course. Abis itu, i spent the few hours before i realized i became very hungry with playing the Sims 2. Quite excited actually.

And then, i got bored, so i played and practicing violin, when i didn't realized Atha called me, became a miscall actually. Then she called me again, and told me that she was hungry. Good for me thou, cos i did hungry as well. So i took a shower, and get off sooner as she called. We ate, have a little chit and chat. Then we started to think how do we gonna get to Palasari, cos none of us know how to get there. And i remember Jason once have gone there, so i took a chance to ask him how. We got to his indakos, we met him with several friends from his indakos, and asked him what do we have to take to get to palasari, and all we get is a empty direction. So we took of undirected. Atha called some of her friends still trying to get the information, then finally we do have some info. We need to get to Jalan Riau incase to get to palasari. So we took the first angkot we met. Then we realized we were on the wrong angkot. HAHA, so we took off and change angkot. So then we roll over the road, changing to few angkot. Then we realized, maybe we were on the wrong way, because we felt its just gets to long.

Ganti angkot ke 3 bikin deg-degan banget. Tapi kita ketemu ama bapak-bapak yang bersedia nunjukin arah menuju daerah yang kita tuju, kita di suggest kan untuk naek angkot berwarna merah instead of angkot berwarna biru ato hijau.

Perjalanan yang amat sangat lama, kita ngelewatin REL KERETA API dimana saat kita nyampe, plang nya nutup dan bunyi bel peringatan nyala, TAPI si supir angkot gila itu NEKAD jalan terus. FEWH, thats the biggest fear i have this early month.. 

Ditengah perjalanan, ada ibu-ibu tua membawa belanjaan, yang masuk dengan grasak grusuk, dan DIA NDUDUKIN gw, bzzz.. dasar ibu tua.

Dan mana lagi, si ibu-ibu ini berisiknya ya ampuunn.. She keep asking why the day was so cloudy, and i was just realized because of her, ternyata tadi siang ada Gerhana Matahari, eventhou gw gak menyaksikan.

hahaha

Setelah menjalani lika liku kemacetan, kita berdua baru sadar, ternyata kita salah ambil angkot, angkot yang merah ini ternyata muter-muter dan GAK nglewatin Palasari.

Jadi akhirnya di depan BSM, kita ganti angkot dan, finally, we arrived at palasari. Fiuhh

And then we buy some books. Not much, ternyata banyak buku tua yang uda ga ada lagi dikarenakan kebakaran palasari semester sebelumnya. Hmm hmm i wonder where should i find those old books.

And then we went home. Lama banget sampai akhirnya tinggal gw berdua sama ata di dalem angkot tersebut. And when we ask the driver, pak, ini lewat universitas Langlang buana ga ya, dan si supir dengan suara amat halus, wah neng uda kelewatan. Cekak cekikik lah gw dan Atha, Lalu tiba-tiba si supir menengok (MASIH NYETIR) neng bukan orang bandung ya? Neng BATAK? ( ke ATHA)

dan guess what, si supir hampir nabrak 2 penyebrang jalan. ahahaha BEGOK

Finally kita sampai di gandok, gw dan atha beli Martabak manis dulu, i bought some for Jason, because i promised him i would bring some for him.

Sampai lah gw di kosan Jadot, kita makan-makan bersama. Ketawa cekakak cekikik, dan lain lain. And sampai lah di saat ini, disaat gw mengetik blog ini. 10:51 pm, its time for BED. hehee

Thanks to anyone who read this. 

Good night , and have a good rest.

See you soon.

retour a vega

Ca y'est c'est reparti je me divise en deux

Je suis toute a la fois l'acteur et le decor

je ne sais ou je cais ou jamais le saurais-je

Je ne vais nulle part mais a toute de vitesse

l'haleine des camions le soleil alienant

Sur le tout du Bancroft building a Montreal

Les filles a moitie nues je pense a toi souvent

les filles completement nues ca ne fais toujours mal

et puis je reste la les gens me semblent heureux

si tu savais souffrir je m'en porterais mieux

tu recevras ma lettre dechirante et dechiree

les larmes de non retour de la chienne a crever

___________________________

that's the lyric of the song that sang by the stills.

I love it

i have the story behind this song, but i dont know yet how to tell it

next time, i will.

today is a very fun day!

Kemaren, 17-12-08, i made a Photoshoot session with a few friends.

Qonaah, Indri, Fubby, Belyn.

Awalnya janjian jm 9 pagi, tp ngaret2 dikit, 

tp akirnya gw dateng juga kesana dan udah ada si belyn dan qonaah menunggu. Kita duduk2 , tapi ga langsung menyiapkan p

eralatan.

Eh keterusan ngobrol, akirnya kita baru mulai Make-up jm 12 , sambil nunggu Fubby.

Foto2 dimulai, dari foto Closeup Belyn, lalu

 kita nyoba 1 baju dulu..

Menyenangkan banget nget nget bisa ngedandanin orang seperti yg selama ini gw impiin, walopun bahan pas2an, tp bisalah dijadiin kreasi gw. hahaa

Akhirnya gw ngedandanin Fubby dan Indri juga. Pas

 gw abis moto Fubby di luar, mamat nelpon, then he came, trus dia gabung deh menjalani photoshoot di hari nan indah ini.

Lalu lanjut kita pergi ke Potluck, yea, lumayan mahal sih tapi enak, kita makan , minum, dan maen UNO disana.

Trus sesuai tujuan awal, kita foto2  , tp ga seserius yg kita lakuin di kosan Indri.

Oia, sebelumnya, dia membi

carakan tentang Gintre 2009, yaah itu pembahasan yang ga akan gw bahas disini. ehhee

Akhirnya kita cabut, kembali ke cimbuluit, lalu makan dulu di Senpus.

Setelah itu kita ke Kosan Rara, yang besok akan berangkat ke Jepang. RARA, save flight yaa!! have fun pulang kampungnya.. ehhee

Setelah itu kita kembali ke kosan Indri , and i saw.. JENG JENG,, ada surat peringatan dari SATPAM sok rajin nya kosannya indri, nempel di kaca mobil nya fubby.wkwkwk

Dan di MOTORnya mamat juga! ahhahaa

lebai banget sih tu satpam, yaudah lah ya kita ga nginep ini kok. zzzz

akirnya kita pulang ke tempat masing2, dan gw langsung mengupload semua foto2 itu. MENYENANGKAN.

Sekarang harusnya gw packing, karena bsok gw balik ke jakarta, dan gw blom nyiapin apa2, hehehee

kalau begitu, sampai disini dulu crita hari wewe, sampai jumpa :D