So, what I was going to achieved the day before yesterday night, was destroyed by some inappropriate action that came towards the word I have said to restate the condition I was willing to fix about.
......
Can't say much because I don't want to write that down , but, I just want to express how I was disappointed by human capability of saying words and doing unreasonable action.
Words are so meaningful, they can bring so much joy also so much devastating moment to someone. But why one can not express it, load it out, speak it out loud, think about it and just say the word how the one feel about it.
Why must one be the victim of the vagueness the other does and should be the one who suffer from the impact *mentally over thinking anything overtime*
Why is everything so complicated when what I was offering is so simple to be done? Why is it has to be like that?!?!?!?!
The plan that I have made destroyed, and still I couldn't manage to bring my self to the state of comfortableness one could ever get from a very longing old friend, that has been skipped for about months because of some accident, wrong decision, of I don't know which side. *strongly approve that it wasn't mine to be blame*
So. Please ladies and gentleman, put your head away behind the bars and keep your words flowed like a river to tell anyone anytime anywhere what is on your mind. That is a really big thing that could impact your either relationship, friendship, famillyship (I just made this word up) anything -ship you would like to have, loved to have, kill to have, whatever to have.
Don't make the same mistake as you kept your feeling down to your self and hoping somebody else would understand how you feel, SCREAM THEM OUT LOUD SO THE UNIVERSE WOULD UNDERSTAND YOU! -no just told it to the one that needed to know, not everybody needs to know. Gossip kills a lot of people thou. haha
Well, thats all I can say this night. Soon will be followed by some other loathing words of disappointment.
Just kidding.
See you in my other experience, Bonne Nuit!
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10.02.2012
Wine Philosophy
The cheapest one doesn't mean anything to wine lovers, might be just something to drink to waste some time, or they might just hate it and think they rather not drink it.
Local wine, some cheap wine that produced in our own land, make believe, to show how we love our own land and use or consume our product. Still, valued as a cheap wine.
so.. here it goes.
Wine philosophy (my own perspective - don't mend it)
A bottle of wine, usually said is good when it is old, kept for so long, for years - depends on what kind of the grapes thou - and, brand, the country that produce it, so on and so on.
So new local wine, produced in this year, means it still so young, no bitter taste, only sour and sweet, and just like that. When you keep it longer, either it will change to something good, or it will waste away(forgotten), i don't know for sure.
So, what i want to describe is that, this new produced wine symbolize a new beginning. Give it to someone, with some intention, either only a gift or some offering. But why cheap? my reason, because I don't know if it's worth to be something expensive for something that I don't now for sure how the outcome will occurs to be.
If the one who receive it drink it all in a second, well, it might turns to be he/she does not think any meaning of the gift. But if he/she keep it, and try to wait until the wine turns to be good, better taste, then he will get the good outcome from the gift.
This is some philosophy referring to some action I'm going to do, but I don't think what will I do is necessary to be told in here, so. Just some thought, of a wine, which I don't really expert in, not at all actually. haha
So, when there's some changes, I will be grateful. If it doesn't, I had nothing to loose.
Let the good be good, and the bad goes away.
sincerely, mostly, apologize manner, hopefully will be accepted.
Local wine, some cheap wine that produced in our own land, make believe, to show how we love our own land and use or consume our product. Still, valued as a cheap wine.
so.. here it goes.
Wine philosophy (my own perspective - don't mend it)
A bottle of wine, usually said is good when it is old, kept for so long, for years - depends on what kind of the grapes thou - and, brand, the country that produce it, so on and so on.
Local Wine from Bali, Indonesia. Named Hatten Wines - Aga Red.
So, what i want to describe is that, this new produced wine symbolize a new beginning. Give it to someone, with some intention, either only a gift or some offering. But why cheap? my reason, because I don't know if it's worth to be something expensive for something that I don't now for sure how the outcome will occurs to be.
If the one who receive it drink it all in a second, well, it might turns to be he/she does not think any meaning of the gift. But if he/she keep it, and try to wait until the wine turns to be good, better taste, then he will get the good outcome from the gift.
This is some philosophy referring to some action I'm going to do, but I don't think what will I do is necessary to be told in here, so. Just some thought, of a wine, which I don't really expert in, not at all actually. haha
So, when there's some changes, I will be grateful. If it doesn't, I had nothing to loose.
Let the good be good, and the bad goes away.
sincerely, mostly, apologize manner, hopefully will be accepted.
9.27.2012
4th Homerecording
Today, again, I had nothing to do so I chose to start taking another recording track for another cover song. This time ClockWise with the so called album Home made, recorded for covering Sheryl Crow ft. Sting - Always on Your Side song.
Chek it out here Sheryl Crow ft. Sting - Always on Your Side cover
Always on Your Side
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I've always feared
Leavin' you so many questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But this isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side
http://www.lyricstime.com/sheryl-crow-always-on-your-side-feat-sting-lyrics.html
Chek it out here Sheryl Crow ft. Sting - Always on Your Side cover
Always on Your Side
My yesterdays are all boxed up and neatly put away
But every now and then you come to mind
Cause you were always waiting to be picked to play the game
But when your name was called, you found a place to hide
When you knew that I was always on your side
Well everything was easy then, so sweet and innocent
But my demons and my angels reappeared
Leavin' all the traces of the man you thought I'd be
Too afraid to hear the words I've always feared
Leavin' you so many questions all these years
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
This isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well they say that love is in the air, but never is it clear,
How to pull it close and make it stay
Butterflies are free to fly, and so they fly away
And I'm left to carry on and wonder why
Even through it all, I'm always on your side
But is there someplace far away, someplace where all is clear
Easy to start over with the ones you hold so dear
Or are you left to wonder, all alone, eternally
But this isn't how it's really meant to be
No it isn't how it's really meant to be
Well if they say that love is in the air, never is it clear
How to pull it close and make it stay
If butterflies are free to fly, why do they fly away
Leavin' me to carry on and wonder why
Was it you that kept me wondering through this life
When you know that I was always on your side
http://www.lyricstime.com/sheryl-crow-always-on-your-side-feat-sting-lyrics.html
9.26.2012
a Little so-called-Exhibition Night
It was Friday 21st, was just got back from work and went to Kemang as I already made a date with Nurjan to go to this event called Park(ing) Day at Kemang89. First I had to picked her up at her office, at Grand Kemang, where actually *i just got notice* is opposite of Belyn's apartment. So she did came along too. We went to the events, we really didn't have a clue where was Kemang89 was. And there we were.
I greet him and he didn't know me, not a clue, even I have said about who my sister is, which he was in the same class year, but he buy my warmness and he took my picture, a lot, I don't know will he use it for his report on his work for some journalistic thing he was doing back there. ehehe *flattered
After we finished our coffee on the so-called park, we went to BirdCage to meet up with Andita. There was a live band, two girls singing beautifully, one of them playing violin, I envy her. I want to be brave like that. Wish I had a great voice, not just this so-so voice I can use for singing in the bath room. huhu
Bonjour! Jusqu'à ce qu'un autre chance!
9.24.2012
29th Anniversary of marriage
Sunday, is my orchestra day. Yesterday I started my routinity like as i always do, I woke up early at 8, hit the shower, and get prepared for leaving to Kebon Jeruk, where the rehearsal always held on.
I didn't put much attention that yesterday was September 23rd, which is my parents wedding anniversary, until I read whatsapp family chat. My mom typed 'Today mom and dad want to gather our children and go to the church together to celebrate our anniversary..(and so on and so on)"
And I was like, F*ck! I forgot the date again.
I tried to set a reminder on my on brain that this month , on the 29th, is my parents anniversary. I kept reminding my self don't forget to say congratulation, even just saying a greetings, not for buying presents or whatsoever. Still , I forget about that. Stupid me.
So after I got finished my rehearsal, my plan was going to this skin clinic to do some treatment near my house, but I thought I had to change my plan. So I called Audi and set a date to did some afternoon coffee while waiting for the church, St. John the Evangelist, schedule which at 6.30pm.
Zara was came along too, and we spent a little time chatting for yea, standard conversation and this and that and then when the time came, I dismissed my self and went straight to the church. We do the ritual as usual, I prayed a lot about my stupidity and forgiveness of my sin and everything else (this is the first time I actually came by the church since like more than a month ago).
After church, we celebrate at Pisa Kafe near the church, the one at Mahakam road. We shared our prayer, the grateful of our lives over this 29years or their marriage. Their children, who had a lot of situations, my mom strength keeping us together each and every day from the very first year till now, and so on , and so on.. * I think I started want to cry but I keep it to my self -haha*
After our great prayer, we had our diner, enjoying conversation, which really rare for us now to have it like that, and finally, went home.
Because I brought my own car, me and mba Upi split with Mom dad and Ichyl. I took different route with them, I took Antasari road. By the time we reached Ciputat, heavy rain started to poured and the street started to flooded. But because my driving skill *hahaha* we got home safely, and fast.
The rest hasn't arrived yet. They got stuck by the flood and thought we were way behind them and started to worried the BMW will get jammed and would be troubled. But after I said we were already home, they got relieved.
So thats the story of my family life. A little, just a cover of my Jakarta life.
Anyway, again. Joyeux vingt-neuvième anniversaire de mariage ma mère, mon père. Je vous aime, je te souhaite toutes les années a venir vont aller plus fort ensemble !
I didn't put much attention that yesterday was September 23rd, which is my parents wedding anniversary, until I read whatsapp family chat. My mom typed 'Today mom and dad want to gather our children and go to the church together to celebrate our anniversary..(and so on and so on)"
And I was like, F*ck! I forgot the date again.
I tried to set a reminder on my on brain that this month , on the 29th, is my parents anniversary. I kept reminding my self don't forget to say congratulation, even just saying a greetings, not for buying presents or whatsoever. Still , I forget about that. Stupid me.
So after I got finished my rehearsal, my plan was going to this skin clinic to do some treatment near my house, but I thought I had to change my plan. So I called Audi and set a date to did some afternoon coffee while waiting for the church, St. John the Evangelist, schedule which at 6.30pm.
Zara was came along too, and we spent a little time chatting for yea, standard conversation and this and that and then when the time came, I dismissed my self and went straight to the church. We do the ritual as usual, I prayed a lot about my stupidity and forgiveness of my sin and everything else (this is the first time I actually came by the church since like more than a month ago).
After church, we celebrate at Pisa Kafe near the church, the one at Mahakam road. We shared our prayer, the grateful of our lives over this 29years or their marriage. Their children, who had a lot of situations, my mom strength keeping us together each and every day from the very first year till now, and so on , and so on.. * I think I started want to cry but I keep it to my self -haha*
After our great prayer, we had our diner, enjoying conversation, which really rare for us now to have it like that, and finally, went home.
Because I brought my own car, me and mba Upi split with Mom dad and Ichyl. I took different route with them, I took Antasari road. By the time we reached Ciputat, heavy rain started to poured and the street started to flooded. But because my driving skill *hahaha* we got home safely, and fast.
The rest hasn't arrived yet. They got stuck by the flood and thought we were way behind them and started to worried the BMW will get jammed and would be troubled. But after I said we were already home, they got relieved.
So thats the story of my family life. A little, just a cover of my Jakarta life.
Anyway, again. Joyeux vingt-neuvième anniversaire de mariage ma mère, mon père. Je vous aime, je te souhaite toutes les années a venir vont aller plus fort ensemble !
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