sigh..

TRIED TO GET SOME FUN.

I'm not in the mood for Bandung-ing, padahal kemaren gw pengen banget stay disana.

I just don't have the guts for seeing those parade of shitty things.

I admit, i'm JEALOUS.

Not because i can not have those, but i dont want to SHARE it !

I tried not to hurt my self because of this bored, but i just found that this is fun enough.

HELP ME!

Bako's Birthday party

Kemaren , tgl 5 Juni, adalah ulang tahun nya Jennifer Bako, yang dari bulan-bulan sebelumnya tuh si Bako, the birthday girl, uda minta-minta untuk dikasi surprise.

Ternyata oh ternyata, tanggal 4 menuju 5, sama skali ga ada surprise, anak-anak kokon dan kobel cuma say, "happy birthday" as ordinary as it is. HAha i wonder how she felt that time.

Tapi ternyata, kita merencanakan plan lain. Malem nya Bako kita kasi surprise. heheehe

Dari jam 5 kita , anak-anak kobel, membersihkan dan mengepel kontrakan, oia , btw, gw uda mulai masukin barang looh, my books and bookshelf uda gw masukin ke kamar baru akuu. ehhee

Abis itu kita ke borma untuk beli gembok karna mobil gw tinggal di sini, besok gw kembali ke Jakarta untuk seketika, heaa

Abis itu kita beli peralatan buat pesta bako.

We bought martabak, yg beli si mike, alias koko na.

We also bought mentega and tepung (which hasil nya kaya adonan di muka Bako).

Jam 8 malem , bako datang tanpa curiga, lalu melayanglah semua adonan-adonan yang uda kita siapin.

Kita makan martabak, kita ngambil cake tomodachi, dan makan-makan mcD. Sekaligus ada ospek dari kami untuk cowo-cowo yang ada, si Bimo dan si Mike. I wonder why dad's name started to get mentioned a few times -_-.

And then after we got our self full of dinner, we get back to our own home sweet room.

Tadinya sih mau nginep kontrakan. tapiii, yaudah lah.

Smoga kijang aman2 aja. Tolong jagain kami ya TUHAN. AMIIN.

hehehehe

It's late already,Ratna nginep tapi langsung tertidur pulas, besok dia balik pagi.

I'm started to get sleepy too. But i might sleep a few more hours.

See you guys.

Nite2. :)

Starts my Packing day !

Hari ini tanggal 5, gw harus udah mulai packing banget nget nget ga boleh enggak !

Packing? buat?

Jadi, mulai Juni ini , gw bakal tinggal di kontrakan di jalan Ranca Bentang 11, deket sama kos dad, deket sama kontrakan anak-anak.

Kontrakan gw dinamain "kobel" means kontrakan sebelas, and kontrakan anak2 "kolam"means kontrakan lama. Haha, a bit weird but unique so lets use it.

Trus, kemaren tuh gw uda mbantuin Ratna mindahin isi kamarnya and she did it like only about 1 or 2 hours. I dont even know where do i have to start to pack my things up. It's all just messed up. hahaha my bad.

Yes, this month will be the last month i play like shit in my only boredsome room.

Hopefully kobel be the best place and choice for me to grow up and have some fun.

Amin.

hmmm

Baru aja gw pulang nonton bareng Caca, Bowo, Daud, Iprit ama Genta di Ciwalk, nonton Drag me to Hell, i suppose to watch it with dad, but, hmm he didn't seem to get me some fun tonight. He rather go sleep and leaning to .. yaa that girl, than having fun with his friends, weirdly I'm the only one who joined them. Yea but who cares anyway, we're friends too, aren't we ?

Yang pengen gw bahas saat ini tu rasa bete gw yang gw rasain ke this guy, gw mulai merasa jealous dan hmm merasa kehilangan, apa ya, berlebihan lah pokonya.

Dimulai dari kata-kata seseorang, sekarang jadi kepikiran terus.

Gw mulai membeda-bedakan, membanding-bandingkan dan mulai jadi aware ama perlakuan, tingkah laku, dan segalanya yg dia akuin, padahal juga biasanya ya biasa aja.

Tapi makin kesini, perlakuan kalo kita cuma berdua, dibandingin kalo lagi ada whoever deh, itu beda bangeeet. And i like the way he treated him self when there just me and him.

Seems like he manja, dan becoming very attractive , yea even dia emang attractive kapan aja. Tapi pokonya when he's with me, just feel different, even thou kalo ama atha pun dia kaya gitu. Tapi pokonya beda.

I want him to be mine.

I think I've lost my chance.

But in mean time, i really love and care about him.

Why this always happened to me? Why can i just being honest to anyone i care for?

Why i must mess all the things up?

I miss you. Even more , each minute and second we are separated.

:(

new deal

it's almost 5 pm, and i still got nothing to do.

Today suppose to be a great day because i've been waiting Boncel to come to my house, we're going to have some "fun". But unfortunately, something must be done, he didn't come because he must go BACK to bandung tomorrow. Hollycrap i must deal with this once more.

Another lonely lonely day to go. What should i do anyway?

I know i've already deal with that missing things. It didn't bother me anymore. We may see each other when i visit Bandung anyway.

Ok i lied.

Gosh, what am i suppose to do? It's still 1st June, i still have to spend another 3 days before i get to Bandung.

Dad, send me any text please, i've been longing to hear anything from anyone.

Anyway, still got curious of my friends, did they success bargaining with the socalled "euis" mam instead?

If they don't , where we all gonna sleep for the rest of the year ? haha

Hopefully they are succeed.

It's not night yet, but i almost kill the day. Thank God i canceled because i might wont stand the pressure anyway.

I'll bring it down to the street 4th June.

Oh God, why this feeling always felt heavily inside ?